Thoughts of a Troubled Mind
She walks through the day, smiling at others to show them a friendly face amongst all the stressed people. She helps others when she can and she cares about others.
But behind this smile, there’s a lot of pain. Pain that no one sees and thoughts that no one can hear.
“Man Rain, why do you feel pain even when you laugh?”
“I forgot how to dream in color..”
“My heart weighs 1000 years.”
“I want to be normal.”
“I want to feel like everyone..”
“Why am I never enough?”
“Who am I?”
“I miss who I was.”
“I don't want to feel anymore..”
“Who am I without the trauma? Who could I be? What could I have achieved?”
“What have I done to deserve this?”
“How much pain can one person endure?”
“While others can enjoy life, life always feels like such a burden to me..”
“I'm tired.”
“What the hell is wrong with me?”
“I thought I'd do better..”
At home she sits there, alone, with no one to talk to. Alone with her thoughts and alone with her pain.
But when she’s out there, she’s doing everything to hide those thoughts, to conceal that pain. She’s doing everything to make the days and lives of others better, so that they don’t have to experience what she feels every day.